Ready to “Be Open” like an introduction
A dream with a spiritual Presence
(Romanian)
Consciousness? Schizophrenia? But the memories are so vivid and so different… Of many “persons,” “I”s in my life and knowledge…
I feel like it’s not my fault… But they are so “mine” …
I sought… Yes, some kind of atonement for the guilt of my first existence…
Making mistakes and making mistakes again, with each new existence… With each experience, I tried to correct previous mistakes. Forgetting how “stupid”, and inexperienced I was back then, the first time… The second time… Oh… Way too many times…
But I did so without anyone forcing me to do it, punishing me for the number of “mistakes” that kept growing… I was just… The only one… Alone…
Yes, I felt it and wanted to do it…
Until I got to that point where it didn’t matter anymore… I was simply existing, living… Carried by the tide of life.
And everything started to flow perfectly… I could feel every “fault” disappearing, “closed” by what I had become… No more fighting for it…
It was me. Kind of “suck,” “immature,” “stupid,” “boring,” and “intuitive” because of me, like Me… And other similar characterizations…
“If you’re going to make any sacrifice to live as a ‘saint,’ why don’t you die and live among the ‘Winged Ones’?” Even the purest metal has “zero comma…” impurities. Do something “foolish,” “adventurous,” “something,” “out” of your principles!”
Am I not doing enough? Too many? Well, from your point of view… I feel like a clean soul… I did the best I could!
I am all Me, I am not the “monkey” of the times I live in! Regardless of sacrifices, injustices, …!
I know that whatever you do will be “rewarded” now or in future existences. No one “gets rid” of himself.
Only the “body” “escapes,” repenting or not, but the soul takes with it what it “lived” in its image and likeness.
To understand the value of your deeds: if you killed, you will be killed, if you maimed, you will be maimed, if you stole, you will be stolen, if… you will…
“If… you will…” referring to whatever guilt you will have… Guilt for doing something or not doing something… To others…
Oh, how hard it is to admit… And for you… As if there weren’t enough crazy people… Which you join…
What you did “good” is not “put” … It was normal, by itself, “unrewardable” … Only what you did “bad” is “put” … Even by you… Regardless of what kind of Self you are now of the act…
Even God pays for his love to his children, whom he helps regardless of their “craziness” and “childhood”… He just helps with what he can…
And usually, children don’t have the brains to understand so much love and power… His vow of non-involvement no matter what happens… Just help… If it doesn’t bother others…
“If I give You something, will the other not be ‘upset’ that he does not receive it? If I think it is good to give you, what will the others think? And, if you receive it, how much will you appreciate this gesture?
I made humans, male, and female, cherished my work, and bless it… And, “man,” with his stories, written and modified by him, to his advantage, what did he do?
Moreover, as if I “dictated” these aberrations…
And, from here, You will repeat the mistakes until you learn and can pass to the “next class” … If you don’t learn, you always stay with the same “beginners”… Which… Look how “wonderful” and full of “future” it’s current times on the “planet of the apes”!
And when you have “closed” all your debts… What will come next?
The only advantage will be that you will start looking for the path to “Ascension,” or “Enlightenment” … Some kind of evolution… I…
Believing in yourself in what matters!
You have the power to be and not to accumulate. Ready to stop considering yourself but only those around you… Existing among them… As it is possible…
Those who will receive “good” will be more refractory than you imagine… Or, worse, they will be simple profiteers.
Does the truth hurt? Always… The climax, even by the one who already knows it, but it suits him to deny it…
Yes, it is a new revelation…
To be Me, regardless of memories, regardless of… Future… Anyway, we can’t run away from eternity.
Is the future predetermined? Or is it “shaped” by my actions and experiences?
Today I am Me… Tomorrow I am all Me… But different from yesterday… Different from tomorrow…
Do I, the past, influence me? Or the future… I get involved with the whole being of the moment to get there.
But, in the end, what’s the point? Isn’t it, I’m evolving with every step. Am I not feeling more “Enlightened”? Sooner or later, I will find out… Now or many lifetimes from now…
None of you will be favored! There are not My “chosen ones,” “penalized ones,” or whatever you want to call or justify. You are all My children, suffering or rejoicing with each of you, all being My equals, and each one will be what he is!
Until he becomes the Other, repeating the cycle…
There are no shortcuts. And if you “climb” higher than you deserve, you will have to fall “higher”! More painful… From your imaginary “heaven” to your imaginary “hell”… After all, you have an eternity to figure out where you are!
By the way, You don’t even need the “instructions” that you call laws! They are written in your soul: “If you don’t like to be killed, don’t kill, if you don’t like to be cheated, don’t cheat, if you don’t like to be stolen, don’t steal, if you don’t like to be humiliated, don’t humiliate, blah, blah…
Merticaru Dorin Nicolae
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