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Introduction
A dialogue between reason and spirituality
(Romanian)
I challenge myself to introspect! Driven by a sense of emptiness or dissatisfaction. Living, emotion is quite confusing…
Why am I unhappy with what’s going on?!? Why do I still feel haunted by a sense of duty to the Divine Powers?!? A feeling I’ve always felt since I’ve known myself…
A feeling that intensified after the stroke I experienced on the day I turned 54…
From the very same day, I had regained consciousness… But the memories appeared after a week, even though those around me said that I was behaving normally. Only my body was still in danger…
The doctors, the medical staff, and my loved ones kept telling me this. But I perceived myself as normal. Only their blood pressure monitors were going crazy when they were “making out with me”…
And that’s not only during the first week (of the two weeks of hospitalization) when I slept more… In fact, according to the description of the medical staff and those around me, there were states like fainting. Later, I would understand why…
I felt normal even though those around me were “confused” by my “normal”… Moreover, apart from the enormous blood pressure (24–26 systolic blood pressure), I was perfectly healthy.
Since then, the feeling has become something like a cold, permanent pressure. A constant fear… Inside… A feeling that I don’t have enough time… For what?!?
And my search deepened… Identifying… Something that attracted a mad desire to write… A conclusion I always came to, whenever I thought about what I would do in my new “life” conditions…
Under the imminent departure from this time and this dimension…
And I answered myself every time: Why?!? I have been writing for over 35 years!!!
Remembering the efforts of these years, I tend to hit the rhetoric: “What’s the point?” …
And other memories come, wave after wave, almost overlapping, giving the perception of simultaneous hits: “If you keep banging your head against the same wall you can’t be anything but crazy”, “Anyone can tell you that after all this effort, you should give up’, ‘What’s the point?’ comes the end like a conclusion.
“Go ahead! That’s why I didn’t leave you, and you had to come back. It wasn’t the time! Finish what you must do!”, come the memories I have immediately after the accident. Perceptions so real they shake me even now…
I remember my opposition just as clearly: “I wrote about everything you sent me! What else do you want from me?!?”.
“You didn’t come here for nothing! What would be the point of a new incarnation for that?!? In that case, your time will end here, in this time and dimension!”, I perceive something like a voice, as scary as it is close to me, to my essence. Love… Mine towards me… My loved ones towards me… And then I understand… How many times?
Okay, I’ll give it my all. But it is the last attempt! comes my request to what I feel, to those I only intuit, but are there, here, in me.
In the end, I labeled myself as crazy, what can I expect from others?!?
But a year of searching followed… Then the main concern, besides surviving under enormous stress, was related to cybersecurity… It wasn’t good, I couldn’t be consistent, and I stopped it. I switched to the site on which I had invested over 20 years… I gave up… I also gave up on the development of a “Visual novel” type game…
In the meantime, with the help of the doctors, I managed to keep my blood pressure “under control” as much as possible… And the anxiety, the fear of the imminent end, diminished, suddenly turning into the optimism of the rediscovered purpose…
From my memories, I had three missions: “The New Medicine”, “The Beginnings”, and “Mortgage One’s Soul” … Indeed, they were all unfinished… Only then did I understand… And the message of what I believe to be the Divine Powers came…
“Write everything as a story! Leave your eternal preoccupation with making “scientific” arguments! Today’s “scientific” arguments will prove to be just a simple brick in the great construction of Divinity, today’s only illusion.
Those for whom you write know the truth but ignore it out of convenience, out of guilt, out of interest… It suits them more to pretend that they are listening to our exhortation, to the fact that your worries for today, for now, are enough! Write! A new exhortation comes.”
Be it! Maybe I’ll get out of here and go back home… And write for those who love me, who can’t wait to finish the books… Each new chapter… I want us to live together the joys that come from this… For them… Yes, it’s worth it, and only for that. It’s worth it, comes the last thought, ironic but reassuring…
If you do, as you usually do, you will have time for them too. Now write!
I feel present. Maybe that’s why you called me “The Presence”. But I feel alone. Or for you, for whom I created time, manifestation, I feel alone… Yes, you and your perceptions, I must locate myself in time… I felt alone… And I realized that, yes, for you, I think… As you say, “I think, therefore I am!”…
Then I had the idea to dialogue with an imaginary entity… But as you say, “In a short time of my time”, yours, I realized that we were alone. And we created new imaginary entities…
Which continued to be me, delimited in them… And, from parts of the presence, they became presences.
And they spread out into the layers of what you describe as the layers of the multiverse, the dimensions of… Layers are made up like a book of your existence. Page upon page, hologram upon hologram, more like a book… That would be the best description in your perceptions… Pages made up of the energetic demarcations of each entity, of each form of presence…
Nonsense… Only me… But the experiences became individualized, and the opposition appeared in the opposite… The laws of our existence follow a path towards unification, towards my decision that there is too much so much opposite, contradiction, as you say…
Something like a perception of the passage of time that I seemed not to experience, that I did not manifest through the other presences.
And then the understanding appeared… I decided to experience what would be the manifestation, the time… To reach a stillness of conclusions, a closure of contradictions…
But there was the major imbalance, accentuated and in the convulsions of my manifestation, of what you strangely refer to as “dark energy, dark matter”, the layers of the manifestation of my presence touched… Just a page from another page, a universe touched the other universe, breaking the laws of my existence, ours…
And I was surprised that the hologram transferred instantly, emphasizing the perception of time, the need for time for manifestation… Through an unfolding of the events of my emergence, of the structuring of my energy… Time… A manifestation that led to me, to Presence…
It took some time, the hologram, even if it had the full content, needed expansion into the total available space, the only element missing from the hologram’s “content”.
I think that’s when the curiosity set in. And I have agreed in all my manifestations up until then… Time equals manifestation… Conclusion…
Then I decided to release the manifestation into the confines of my presence… It was getting interesting… The purpose appeared… To do something other than what we are… The thoughts of the same presence…
Yes, I perceived the individualities. I had perceived them for a long time, but was not aware of them… Me, you, him in the same person, in the same uniqueness… But individual…
Observing the development of the hologram in the new layer of the universe, which led to my appearance, I sensed that a simple imbalance in the original universe, an uneven development of the distribution of my energy, of our energies, was enough for my appearance. Yes, now it seemed that there were more of us, although it was only me…
An imbalance that transferred identically to the other universe, layer, or tab, as I think you would understand…
And it was not difficult to realize that I need a new layer, a new universe so that the universes, the layers that surround them, can be influenced in a controlled manner. Let the manifestation exist but under my control, well, ours…
And from there, time and manifestation developed with each entity of mine, with the effort and search of each part of me, individually describable or not…
Hard to control in the conditions where I was creating everything… I was failing, taking the best version, manifestation, and improving it, until I concluded that the manifestation of energy like us, to me, was not giving results…
Then, from us, the idea arose to create something easier to control, manipulate… With the help and support of energy…
Next came the structuring of energy into something, what you call matter… It was not difficult because there was a lack of energy… Something like the unraveling of a fabric made up of the rarefaction of what is our manifestation. Structured, controlled shortages under the possibilities of the laws of manifestation.
But the manifestation in the matter and evolution of its structuring started… Then I again felt the need to close the contradictions, which persisted…
And life followed… Something that would lead to such a new manifestation but under matter… But something independent of contradictions, but with the ability to correct the manifestation through its contradictions… Through our possibility of intervention… Under certain conditions to stop contradicting ourselves, as in manifesting in energy…
The proof is the manifestation of oneself in matter…
We are only a kind of neutral observers who can judge the manifestation of contradictions and thus have a real opinion about the closure of each contradiction… All under a kind of law of non-involvement…
But the manifestation of matter depends on time… And what we could discover and experience through matter manifested only for a time… Insufficient for the closure of contradictions…
Life appeared too late, and the existing energy support was insufficient to sustain a major development, what we needed…
And there followed the decision of a new universe and the holographic translation of the manifestation into the inner universe, taking over the hologram that had developed into what I was already calling an experimental universe, leaving the old universe to see its contradictions manifest in the almost broken but continuing fabric and now exists and suggests to us in advance what to avoid both in the past and the future of the new manifestation, of the new transferred universe…
Many of the errors perceived in the first manifestation of matter were corrected preventively but it was still not enough… We still have time during the manifestation… At least for something better… What will be transferred to the new universe… If there will be a need for so much torment, so much effort…
Maybe we will get rid of the contradictions and have time to deal with us, those of manifestation in the matter, in the life of these two universes.
I, the Oneness, feel that I have a little of your time left to eliminate the contradictions… But in the first universe, not the one of departure… In the one here… There is still a long way to go until then… In your time, you have barely reached half of the time the existence of this universe… But from the previous one, we learned what we can do, so that here you can reach the elimination of all contradictions faster…
Here, in this new universe, we hastened the creation of the support of matter for the emergence and evolution of life… We already knew enough from the other universe…
Only for you, my creations, I worry… I exist anyway… And all the billions and billions of entities that make me up and eliminate the contradictions…
And, to ease my suffering, I will describe to you, as much as you can understand, what has happened up to your time… I cannot convey to you anything from the existences of the previous universe… Evolution must come of itself…
We… Hmmm, I’m already using the plural?!? Yes, we know where to intervene to help you… To lessen my suffering, to lessen our suffering… Every joy you experience is also experienced by my entities, and by me, and every pain…
You got it… Stop blaming me! Stop blaming us! We do everything we can to stop reliving the pain of your past behaviors…
And if I fail, through you, I will create a new layer and transfer the new hologram… I will eventually succeed! Pity for so much suffering that is born only from indifference… And for so much worry to maintain life in a dying universe… You will understand!
Come on, let it go! Write!
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