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"Mortgage One's Soul"
Mircea Dan
Day 1, Part 2 - The Message

            He neutrally assists in turning the gaming console into the living room! It takes long enough time for him to be overwhelmed by his thoughts...
            He sensed the pressing of a desire difficult to specified, annoying by her insistence... Or, by... Ohhh, maybe that's why he walking without reason in the room thinking cyclical, obsessively, on the same logical line. Always and always the same thoughts, without escape, without finding a possibility to reconfirm this nasty lack of meaning…
            What is happening to me? Again I've got one of the passes of black premonitions or I’m too lonely?" Well, as usual… Maybe going out around will help me in some way?!? A trip to the Pub?!? What do you say?!? But with who to meet there? I don't even know which of the boys is not gone in a job... Maybe I’ll go to my faithful Ema?!?
            Ema… To enjoy her presence, her love, and her dedication… Or to suffer in silence, looking at her inability to change something at me… By myself… In some measure… This situation has become more and more difficult to bear… He often looked at her and remembered him, in the times with Ada… Future plans, devotion, sacrifice… Everything only and only together with him, only for him, always forgetting the worry, the uncertainty, the coldness of his… Everything's under the steam of love for him… How much he sought to live, again, under the sweet taintless of the lover… Like Ema… And of those before her…
            Ohhh, but it’s not good! So did he then and, what followed was terrible pain… For years and years in a row… What followed?!? The sacrifice of many women who had truly loved him. As usual, as it will surely be in the case of Ema, he will leave them for guilt, embarrassment, shame or other feelings of his humility. All of these added to that pain more and more pain… Almost unbearable… In fact, he was increasingly horrified by the pain that he was about to provoke, something almost similar to what he had experienced… So much that, every time, postpone the moment of breakup… Because of fear, of habit… Ohhh, he really deserved all that pain he was experiencing!!!
            No, oh no!! There must be a solution… Indifference and insensibility… Why would their suffering be a problem… They had to "yawn eyes", like him, before he entrusted his soul unconditionally to another soul… This was the way?!? He had not succeeded… He couldn’t be indifferent… He couldn’t stop to seek his fulfillment… From his point of view, the search is the way…
            And he was always looking for it, causing more and more pain to himself or to the bitter one who could still fall in love with that monster… Ohhh, what was he… Leftovers after Ada’s launch… Already putrid… Ohhh… But, it does not matter how many times you try… It is important to know that you have done everything. To have the feeling that any option has been dealt with…
            Yeah, and what do I do now? Quickly return to reality… It’s almost evening... I think, however... Hmmm... Maybe a trip to „Pilot Pub" would do me good. It’s impossible not to meet ahold of someone there, to exchange a word. Maybe I can win easily 1 or 2 credits if someone wants to play a game. It wouldn’t be a bad idea, he thought, pleased! Not Ema… I don’t want to be part of another confused situation now! Ema is too organized, too punctual as regards their "future". Addiction on fun, be it unreal, forced, it’s what I need now…
            Just do not have the misfortune to meet Rick out there because is gone all my easy earnings. I’ve just learned this lessons, so many and many times, that I have no chance in front of him. No matter what kind of game it’s being made. I don’t want to lose anymore, especially since I haven’t been, for a long time, in a race, with a job as much as possible.
            But before that, to leave, there was something else to solve for civic duty, and tomorrow was the deadline day for that... Eh, maybe I’ll take a ride to the Pub, at least for a good “gargle” with someone on the subject of civic duty of this month... What happens! Only at the Pub, is all my thoughts… Yeah, let’s get to work, to see what it’s all about...
            He waved his hand to attract activation of communications. The information display was activated and in its center “flickered” or "call sign or the pilot. A message to me, the pilot?!?

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            Hint: 3. This is the second choice... Don't let you be a "prey" of the appearances! Any decision you take will greatly influence what will follow you (totally different stories). But after all, let your instincts be free to act! The character will follow your path... And, why not, you can return anytime you want to a certain  "point" of the events and change your choice (I'll make some sort of evolution plan of the events or, who knows...)!
            4. For example, choosing to access the message allows accessibility to V01 and V02 of the game, ignoring reading the message you unlocks V03 accessibility and V04 and leaving the character to go to the Pub you unlocks the line of evolution to V05.

Dorin M - November 12, 2017

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                 Dear readers in English,
            Using existing methods of translation (for the Romanian language) have still large gaps, so I proceeded to an effort to achieve, if possible, its translation (and its adaptation) for you. I apologize for the many mistakes but I am sure that my effort gives better results than existing translation engines.
            In addition, your effort to correct this text with your translations are welcome but I cannot reward your efforts, just only with mere mention of your aid, in bottom of text, where it was given and, why not, in the future, you may have a possible material reward, if my adventure will be financially successful.
            Thanks for your understanding (and help, if possible),
            Dorin M

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